The countdown

is in full swing. I am only dialated a little more than 1 but not too much, which doesn't surprise me. Corban didn't dialate well either. I will go back to the doc in a week and if Asher has not made an appearance by then they will induce Friday. Which would be great, except that it is Eric's brother's birthday, Eric's birthday is 2 days later. But I really would like for him to come this weekend. The doc picked Friday because he is on call and I would love to have him deliver. I really do like my doc.

On the home front, we are fully moved in but not 100% situated. Eric has painted both Corban's and Asher's rooms. Aher's is a real light blue and will be decorated with green and monkey accents. Corban's is a little darker blue and will be decorated in fire trucks, he has a fire truck toddler bed. Their bathroom has not been painted yet but is monkeys and frogs.

I personally have been having a difficult struggle lately. I often miss church due to Corban's nap time and me just being plain tired on top of it, so often I take a nap with him. That, in part, is due to the move and just being preggers. I also have lost touch with what I once called close"friends." I am not sure that I have done anything to cause this but for whatever reason we no longer talk. I find myself feeling like the "rebound" relationship till something better comes along for the other person and then they are gone, only to have it happen over and over again. Then I have the "friend" who is too good or concerned about their "position" to actually be a friend, that I have never understood. I do really love my church family but it is so small it is hard to find someone I can really connect with. Since I am not a stay at home mom I have a hard time finding time to catch up with much of anyone because most of my free time is on the weekends and I know those are busy for everyone. I am thinking of doing away with my facebook, I just grow frustrated to see where my friends have made time to meet up with others, yet I didn't even get a phone call for a simple hello. Especially when my calls go unanswered or messages unresponded to. To be honest, it really does hurt my feelings. While I am quite the confrontational type for some reason I will not do it for myself. Don't get me wrong I am not perfect and I am sure I have NOT been the friend I need to be either I just get tired of trying. Why should I put any effort into it if the other person will not? I am just tired, frustrated and emotional and the preggers doesn't help any. I just had to get that off my chest. I feel better now. I am not looking for sympathy or pity/praying for you comments I just needed to vent. I think there are lots of other women out there that feel the same way though and for some reason we have to be strong and show no weakness. God has blessed my family above and beyond what I can ever imagine and I know He has not forgotten me...... I am just tired (mentally and physically) and frustrated and done, so to speak.

Deep breath

Well, Tuesday we finally closed on our house and moved in!!!!! We had lots of great helpers to get the truck unloaded and big furniture in the house.... we had to remove a door or 2 but they went right back on. I wasn't too much help because the house is 3 stories and I can't carry those boxes up and down the steps. I did start the cleaning though. The people we bought the house from left some junk and didn't leave it clean. She had 2 dogs and there was dog hair all over the steps, the kitchen cabinets were beyond dirty so my loving hsband called a maid service and they came and cleaned the baseboards, lots of dog hair, bathrooms and cabinets. It was well worth it!!!! We have a few more things to move today from my parents house, like the bed for the 4th bedroom and a chest of drawers.

Corban is adjusting well. Right now he is sleeping in Asher's room in the crib still and when we move Asher to his room, when he starts to sleep at night, Corban will go to his fire truck toddler bed. He all ready loves to play on it and today we might try a nap on it. Speaking of naps we are down to one nap a day so he sleeps better at night now. Did I mention Corban LOVES going up and down the stairs.

Eric cleaned and shocked the pool yesterday so it is ready to go! The only problem is it doesn't look like was are going to have a fall the tempatures are just dropping, which is nuts!

Oh well, back to unpacking. We will post pics when everything is finished. Asher will make his arrival in the next 2 weeks, maybe I should pack my hospital bag...... tomorrow......

A Beautiful Mess

is the most accurate description of my life/home at this point in time. If you walk into my house, which is really only accessable by the back door due to all the boxes that block the front door, that is exactly what you will find a mess. We have boxes piled high around the table, front door, Corban's room, our room. This weekend I get to pack the rest of the house and we will get to live like we are camping!!!! Eric has taken next week off and we will close on Tues at 10:00, after Asher's dr appt. While it has been a long crazy stressful time in our lives, it will come to an end very soon. we will be in our new house, which has everything we wanted in the area we wanted, and Asher will make his appearance soon. I have asked him to give mommy one week to get his new room set up.

At my dr appt on Wed. the ultrasound showed that the placenta has moved from blocking my cervix and Asher can make his exit. Now, since he is sunny-side up he needs to take a little spin to help mommy out in this process. I am dialated to a 1, which isn't much, but my doc says he is sitting right there and that when I start contractions that it won't take long for him to get here. In official timing we have 3 weeks to go!!!

Corban's 1st hair cut

We took Corban to get his first hair cut yesterday and he did such a good job. I thought we would end up having to hold him but that was not the case at all. He actually sat in the chair like a big boy. He did push her away a few times but he never cried or fussed. His favorite part was a sucker for being such a good boy, he does belong to me because he loves grape, which has always been my favorite. Pics to come. My hands are swollen it is getting difficult to type.... tomorrow is 4 weeks to Asher and today is 12 days till close..... I am so ready to move!!!!!

The adventure begins....

Being preggo with Asher has been, for the most part, uneventful, aside from the previa that I go back next week to have recehcked with another ultrasound. We will then know if Asher will be "scheduled." Well last week I started having a pain in my foot that shot from my shin every time I took a step. At first I thought that I had pulled something. Then the next day my foot and ankle was swollen along with a loss of sensation in my left leg, it felt like it was "asleep" but trying to wake up all tingly, it hurt so bad!!!!! After a call to the doc, I recieved a call directing me to the hospital for an ultrasound on my leg. They said the loss of feeling and swelling was normal but not the shooting pain.... so they checked for a blood clot to be sure. The test came back negative so they let me go home. Asher was sitting on my nerve causing me to not feel my leg. Friday he decided to move ever so slightly and is, for the most part, off that nerve. Thank God! I told the doc we close on the 31ts and I need at least a week before Asher arrives to collect my sanity!!!!

Fast Forward

Is a button I want to push for this month so bad!!!! Our house is sold and we are not going to be able to close on our new house till the 31st!!!! :( When we made a request to reduce the price of the house, because the roof will need to be replaced within the next 2-3 years, teh seller agreed but changed the closing date. I guess that is understandable because she is moving into an apartment......... So, our house will be completely packed on the 30, except for our bed and Corban's and when we get up that morning that is all we have to throw on the truck. Or, that is the plan anyway. So, sure we can move and have a baby 2 weeks later, nothing stressful about that, that is if I don't have to have a c-section......

On the Corban front, he thinks it is so funny when he poots. I am convinced that boys are born with this.....

Are you nuts?

Is a question I have been asked many times the past couple of weeks. I simply respond God is so good! We close on our house on Thursday!!!!!!

Tomorrow is the inspection at our "new" house. We don't see there being any problems but your prayers are more than welcome! While Eric is over there tomorrow afternoon he will take a few pics. Growing up I had really good pastors and they taught me to pray for specifics. That it it not that God doesn't know what you want but He wants to hear it from you. So when we started praying about our house, together and seperate I had a list of specifics, just like I did for this house. I want you to know God answered every single item I asked for.

-4 bedrooms or at least 3 with a den
-a big laundry room where we can leave the ironing board out and close the room up
-wood floor in the living room
-a master bath with 2 sinks and a door between the toilet/shower area and the sink area
-large master closet
-formal dining room
-fireplace
-2 car/ 2 door garage
-fenced in back yard
-seperate dog run area fenced in

After I saw how much Eric would like a pool I added it to my would be nice but not a must list, but we got that too :) Needless to say we will be having a pool party sometime between moving and having a baby.......