I get knocked down, but I get up again....

Yes, I know, you will be singing that all day now, you're welcome. That is the just of my life lately. I have been struggleing to maintain a good attitude. People frustrate me, not that they mean it intentionaly, I don't think but that doesn't always make it any better. I do want to let you know this is not aimed at anyone on here.

I am a working mom. While I don't enjoy my current position at work it is an end to a means and it pays the bills. So inspite of my attitude I thank God, daily, for my job He has shown me favor, just like He promised. That being said, I am SUPER busy! Most of my weekends and evenings are planned. I have had several people that I know that are stay at home moms, mind you there is nothing wrong with being a stay at home mom, turn their nose up at some of my personal decisions about my family. I don't go running to the doctor every time Corban sneezes (its not necessary and a $40.00 copay). I don't lay down and take naps with him daily. No, I can't go the 1/2 price Tuesday at the zoo, and I can't meet you at the pool this afternoon. I am not going to change my weekend plans because you decide you want to visit someone, who like you, doesn't work during the week. No, I can't go buy something that is on sale just because it is on sale, I have my boys to think about. No, I am not disappointed to be having another boy, less to buy that way. Yes, I am going back to work, having another child doesn't make things cheaper. No, we don't have a nursery for Asher all decorated because he will be in our room since we have a 2 bedroom house, which is adorable.

These questions bother me because many times it implys, to me anyway, that my husband doesn't have a good enough or a real high paying job. When in truth he has a good paying job with benefits that in all honesty, could be a little better, but who's couldn't? How many wifes can say that when they have to work to 7pm that they don't even think twice about their husband being at home with the baby and having to provide dinner and give baths? I am so blessed! I have a husband that is willing to do anything for our family. I have chosen to work for now because it makes us able to provide more for our family. Corban has an excellent nanny, who will be taking care of Asher as well. We could not ask for a more kind, God fearing, praying family. Ok, I just had to get that off my chest.

Wow

It is hard to believe that time has gone by SO fast! In less than 10 weeks Asher will make his appearance. Asher means Fortunate; blessed; happy, and was the leader of the tribe of Asher and was the son of Jacob. Corban has noticed mommys tummy looks different but has not made the connection..... he will in 10 weeks or so though. We are still praying that this little one will arrive with no complications.

On the house front...... we have put our heads together and think we may have a price that we can work with to add on.... we will know more in a week or so. But, we are looking at a den and master on the back of the house. We wouldn't get that 4th bedroom we wanted or a garage but we would keep our massive yard, which is a plus to us. We would add, later, one of the 4ft above ground pools and would have plenty of room for a big swingset and still leave room for Zoe and tons of run around space...... without us even having to use front yard space. Another benefit if we add on is we keep our space and there will not be anyone on top of us and we do have some really great neighbors.

On the job front..... my job is getting a little more interesting. In my area we have gone from 17 people to 7..... some have quit, others fired and others moved to a different department, which I do not envy b/c they will be working on Sundays and till 10pm.... so I decided not to take that position. My hourly supervisor is one of the ones who moved and in the mean time I have been filling her role while having to maintain my sales and performance numbers as well as doing on the job training for the new hires. If you know anyone who needs a job in sales and has good customer service skills have them go to Regions.com because our Riverchase office is hiring like crazy.... granted for the first year of employment you schedule can work you as late as 7pm, but the pay is good. My manager wants me to apply for the supervisior position but I am not interested I want normal hours, granted they would be more normal, and off the phones..... I take all of the escelated calls, so I take fewer calls, but most of them I am being cussed out so I get to hang up on them :) I am going to buy my time and after Asher gets here and I go back to work I will be looking for more job postings as well as looking for something at UAB or somewhere it is state benefits and retirement :)

Not too much.....

Nothing that is really new to report.... still waiting on the house to sell. We had hoped to have it sold by now but we are still waiting. Since we are in a 2 bedroom there really isn't too much to get ready for other than clothes and diapers and pull the baby bath and a few other things out of storage. We will be getting a co-sleeper and lilbit (Asher) will be in our room till God provides our new house. It is so hard to be patient but I would rather wait on Him than to make any bad decisions.

I had thought about going somewhere this weekend to have a "vacation" this year but it doesn't look like it will happen. I will be using my vacation time for post delivery and dr appts. Eric and Corban are leaving in a couple of weeks to go to Fl. to visit his grandparents. It also happens to be our anniversary that week so we will spend it apart :( Maybe mom will take me shopping that would work :)

I have yet to get my set schedule at work which is so frustrating. I try not to let myself get down about it but it is beyond difficult. I think I got to spend a total of 20 minutes with Corban last night before he went to bed, he was being a boy and didn't want mommy so I just watched him play. I can't really pick him up anymore, and because of the abrevia I can't really pick up much of anything. Because Asher is so low I look like I am at 9 months..... my 9 month maternity clothes from Corban are tight and uncomfortable.

We are also praying about our church. We LOVE the people but we are looking for that "fit" that we have not had in a while. It is also difficult b/c with little people we need a good nursery and children's program, not that where we go now is bad by any means, just things to consider that were not as big of factors as before. I grew up at Kingwood, which was great, I want that for my kids too. I grew up with that constant in my life.

Sorry about my whining, I just needed to get it all out...... thanks if you read this far :)

It tastes like thick sunkist.......

So this morning at 7:45 I was starving and drinking nasty orange junk. Now we are just praying for a good report from my glucose screen. Next was the ultrasound, which took a good 40 minutes, thanks to lil bit not cooperating. Every time the tech would get a clear shot of what she needed, he would stick his head right in the way. So, we had to do one the "other" way. The abrevia is still there, however it is improved but not yet considered "normal." So, I will have another ultrasound at 36 weeks and if things are the same we will have a "scheduled" baby this time. I have kept myself from looking up info online, b/c there is so much stuff on there, so I did not know how dangerous it is for me, if I were to go into labor, till today.

This weekend will be a little emotional as we will say good bye to my grandmother's house as we move everything out and close on the contract we have on it. The house never even had to be put on the market!

A couple of changes

Corban is growing up so fast I just want everything to slow down! Every night before bed we read books, yes books. We have a night night book that must be read following that could be any book but the past couple of weeks it has been a peek-a-boo book, that I got for $1 at BAM when I met Jamie for dinner. It has about 7 or 8 animals and you say the noise they make and their paws/feathers cover their faces and you can pull them down and they reveal the animal. Wed night Corban decided to be repeat the animals, we have dog (which he has mastered for a while now) but he decided to add chicken, sounds like chichen, sheep, sounds like shweep, pig and cow. We have also added cookie(tookie), sock, shoes, toes. He also loves to point to bobos (belly button) after he points he takes his hand flat and cover up the bobo till you ask where it is then he smiles real big and moves his hand. If you ask him where his bobo is he will gladly pull up his shirt and show you. He and Eric went to the thrift store last night and found a "working" toy vacuum cleaner which is now our favorite toy and must never be out of sight. Even if it is on and making noise he still makes the mmmmmmmmm noise himself.... he is def going to be the neat freak like his daddy(love you honey).

-We bought Zoe a kennel and she is now an outside dog, the shedding got to be too much for the "neat" ones in the house, even though it was not too bad.
-We have significiantly lowered the price of the house but have had no offers so Eric is considering renting, I am honestly not a fan of this, but we will do what we need to.
-We are still praying about a job for me. While Eric has been more than patient, the 10-7 shift is about to kill both of us since I have been working it for about 12 weeks in a row now. I am getting closer to getting my set schedule but it is beyond frustrating. I am being used as one of the night supervisiors which is good experience but I am ready for normal hours. My manager is not budging on making me be there a full year before she lets me apply for a position in another department, which wouls mean a raise and "normal" hours, UGH!
-I go on Thursday for my glucose test and ultrasound #3 and praying that the partial placentia abrevia has corrected itself.

Corban Lee 15 Months

Words- bye bye, baby, mama, dada, zozo (for Zoe), ball, shoes, dog, baba (bottle), papa (paci), no no (as he continues to do what he is not supposed to), uhoh, bobo (belly button) and I may be forgetting a few.

I know where to find- my toes, nose, ear, mouth

I sign for- more and milk (working on hungry)

I like to- play in my pool, slide, swing, play outside, run and scream, dance, push anything with wheels, flush the potty, pretend and make noise like a hair dryer and curl my hair with the curling iron, brush my hair, brush my teeth, get anyone's bobo and toes, give Zoe her dog treats, dip everything in ketchup, like daddy, feed myself with a fork, run around naked after my bath, help daddy with anything and everything, chase Zoe all over the house to give her lovin

I don't like to- have my diaper changed, not get my way, put on clothes, okra, be told no

Mommy loves- morning hugs, when asked if it is night night time the way I give hugs and walk to my crib, my laugh, my smile, snuggle time, to dance with me, the way I point and say huh when I know what she is saying, the way I spin in circles, the way I run with my arms behind me when I get excited

"Be strong take heart and wait on the Lord"

Ps. 27:14. This is the verse that sustained me all throught highschool and I have found my strength in it once again. Eric and I have lowered the price on our house, we need it to sell. We have also found a house that we really like. The builder even has a deal where if your house has not sold by the time they finish building yours they buy your house from you. While we will have to give up our yard in return we will get a 4bedroom with a den and a real 2 car garage, so decisions, decisions. Still waiting to hear back from the school that I applied at, in August I can "post out" of my position and hopefully get into something with normal hours and no Sat. So, needless to say we are seeking God and asking Him for His best, just like He promises.

My brother comes home on Sat and will be the first time I have seen him since my grandmother's funeral.